Now...

Feeling unnecessarily stressed...

My heart is pumping so fast, my mind is whirling. When these kind of things happen, I know very well I'm not suited for this job. I'm not comfortable and I don't think it is good for my health if I stay long.

I rather pay the bond, eat less and enjoy a more calming life.

I want to quit now.

And it's only the start of term 2? O my goodness

End of march holidays...

:)

It's the last day of my march holidays...

And this sounds technically wrong cos this is not my holidays but the pupils'... Haha:) but I'm thankful for the short 5 days break from the 10 weeks marathon which leave my breathless till the last moment on the Tuesday that just passed...

I went to Malaysia and came back a happy girl. One shorts and one lace tank top. One box of durian puff and 5 baked bbq buns. Plus great memories w fiancé.

Today is ending w a birthday celebration and problematic piles which make my face look uncomfortable constantly. Piles do go away fast! I'm sorry I spend so much time on the toilet bowl on the friday night that passed. I'm do tired from all the blood loss:(

Tmr is packed w lesson plans, simplified lesson plans, cca stuffs and bt presentation. Well, it never ends:) but I can do it!

And this feeling...

If u have a teacher who is so good looking and charming and talented in many ways, how do u stop yourself from looking at him too much and stop being attracted by him too much before everything is too late?

I don't have such a good looking teacher, but I have a feeling that I will be meeting someone special very soon.

Are you coming by really soon?

Going home...

To fill up my tummy before I get down to completing my work.

Aja limin fighter! One more day to the start of my short holidays! I can do it!

Kuishinbo afternoon delight!

Was walking about jp for lunch and we saw a line forming outside kuishinbo with no one inside the restaurant.

My bf decided to join the queue after seeing that we are less than 5 mins away from the afternoon delights and i was quickly convinced by him to try the buffet cos we were ushered in before I could find out more about the buffet online!

The food was mainly the usual kuishinbo buffet, minus the paper hot pot, fresh seafood (sashimi and snow crab).

The fried varieties include small shrimps and takopochi balls! I ate twi bowls if chawanmushi! They were really smooth and I love the small ginko nut at the bottom of the bowl! Hahah:p

Cooked food include fried rice and pan fried dory. There were a few varieties of sushis and cold noodles as well as a small selection of bread and cheeses. The desserts were ok, I regretted not eating more chocolate fondue w marshmallow! Haha:p

The only food that missed the mark is probably the vegetable curry from the cooked section. It was not savoury and almost tasteless.

Drinks include soft drink and hot beverages. I had two twinnings, too bad they did not have earl grey:(

Worth it? Hmm... The food varieties are limited so it's hard to justify the worth of $20 per person after gst and service charge. It is a great one time experience nonetheless:)

Erm...

Dont make it sound like its my freaking fault for ur inefficiency?

If u need the key, why not ask before the class instead of talking to me in this rude manner? Just a meanie... Seriously...

Urgh, such crap pple jus spoil my day

And dear colleague...

Please don't put on such a defensive front. Im just trying to help, not snatching ur popularity votes from the pupils. I teach for the well being my pupils.

If u are truly passionate about music, u should have applied for music in nie. A musician will always be a musician, one does not need to constantly flaunt and mention about on one's ability. Unless... You lack the confidence?

I know u like to win people's favour and love to talk cute and sweet. But sorry, I have seen people like you and my stomach cringes when I see your kind of people.

U have already lost a musician's inert and that is to share the joy of music making. Be more broad hearted? Maybe that will make u a better musician and teacher?

Please stop all these...

Sometimes I wonder... Whether my desire to teach surpasses my patience in handling a difficult child.

Although I'm not eloquent, I see myself as a very patient teacher. But pupils, especially those I taught today, are exceptionally badly behaved. And yes, the word is exceptionally.

One particular boy calls me names and today he called me a maid when I offered to help him to throw his spoilt stationary.

Full stop. Any complains from the unreasonable parents or any crap that triggers my bad emotions. I'm tendering.

A job is a job... It shouldn't be hurting my health and my emotional well being.

Bond or no bond, my health is my top priority.

Tummy ache...

The stomach is still aching after so long... But nothing is coming out when I'm in the toilet!!!

Urgh! How to sleep tonight???

Tummy achezzz

Sticky?

I read a blog of an old jc school mate and she mentioned about meeting her fiancé every night and that it's a gauge whether they can live and face each other for the rest of their lives.

I can't help but to agree with her. I think it's not that i can't wait to stay with my fiancé for the rest of my life, but rather whether the both of us can enjoy each other's companionship for a longer period of time. A marriage to me is a lifetime, if I dont start getting used to his continuous presence and only to realise both of our lifestyle are not suitable for each other after the wedding, wont it be too late?

Wat about peers who may pressure me to be more "independent" and "have my own life" instead of meeting the bf? They have a point but I think my previous point is more legit. And to these peers... I just want to say... It's my life and im going to live the way I deem correct.

Those two who said the above sentence to me are singles with no boyfriends. I believe it's hard for them to imagine themselves in a situation similar to mine, but it really irked me when they started retorting and one of them even told me off by saying she had been attached for 6 years previously.

Well, in my heart I wanted to rebuke... Maybe that's why ur relationship did not work out in the end and u are still single now. But I was too chicken to say out.

Sigh, such unpleasant people I have at my workplace.

If anything happens...

I will quit! All these r getting too tiring...