Am i bullied?

read a couple of online articles on workplace bullying when i was googling on quitting from the service.

i do feel horrible being in an environment where subject teachers like to joke about how you should be a music teacher so that you can leave early from school and have less markings to do. But not only me, upper primary teachers also like to joke about wanting to teach in lower primary instead so that they have less work to mark and less disciplinary issues to handle.

if you have a right mind, i believe it is easily understandable that the two allegations above are not entirely true. But stereotyped mindsets are difficult to resolve. and i think im in no position to change the negative climate in the staff room since its deep rooted and i have set my mind in leaving the service.

looking back at yesterday's meeting, i felt unjustified. i single handedly trained the pupils for the finale performance in the school's speech day last year, and i didnt see my name being mentioned. firstly, the committee volunteered my service, when after that I realised im not obliged to follow. The committee did nothing concrete to help me, i was left on my own and produced a rather good performance.

given my personality, i just swallowed this sadness and move on. im really not motivated to work in this place that gave me the worse classes when i just started out in my teaching career, i was given the hardest classes to tackle. they expected me to make exemplary changes to the school's curriculum when my classroom management is zero. pupils got into physical fights with each other in my class, it was hard to conduct normal lessons as pupils were rowdy and noisy most of the times.

the positive changes i have contributed to the pupils' behaviour are not recognised, my efforts in being members of some programs are not recognised, the witch chooses to ignore me and undermine my effort.

i may be experiencing workplace bullying, im not sure. but im tough and i will get through this.
i will end this for the well being for myself.

i have a fantastic ro, i love her even though she can be demanding at times. but the unhappy memories need to end because i care alot for my health and emotional well being.