When life is filled w so much doubts and fear, days r dark and sullen. But I know... A ray of light will enlighten my path and guide me to the brightened route where happiness and contentment awaits.
I must be strong, and I will be strong.
Thursday 31 May 2012
Monday 28 May 2012
Momiji Japanese Buffet Restaurant @ City Square
Whee:)) finally had my sushi cravings satisfied on one Saturday evening at Momiji:)
The buffet was normal:) food quality is slightly better than sakura buffet, and probably slightly below par as compared to kuishinbo!
The meal was enjoyable and we had a good time cutting the snow crab legs and trying to remove the meat from the shells in one whole piece! The feeling is surprisingly gratifying!
Yummy!!
The buffet was normal:) food quality is slightly better than sakura buffet, and probably slightly below par as compared to kuishinbo!
The meal was enjoyable and we had a good time cutting the snow crab legs and trying to remove the meat from the shells in one whole piece! The feeling is surprisingly gratifying!
Yummy!!
Friday 25 May 2012
Read from somewhere tt...
Introverts, in contrast, may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and business meetings, but after a while wish they were home in their pajamas. They prefer to devote their social energies to close friends, colleagues, and family. They listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror of small talk, but enjoy deep discussions.
Wednesday 23 May 2012
Don't count your blessings...
Instead be contented to be blessed:) somehow, i am glad that i started this blog cos now i can backtrack on what i have achieved or what i have done previously. just yesterday, i was feeling depressed for losing 4 students due to my straightforwardness and honesty. Felt so terrible... until i read my blog just now.
Since 7 may, I have found 4 more students! Yippee:):) *clap clap clap* very happy with my progress, slow but I am satisfied. shant feel so sad anymore:) need to pick myself up and work hard for my well being:)
Great to be feeling blessed:)
the terrible feeling...
of not receiving the results when the students from other courses have already received theirs is maddening:( now im starting to think if im blacklisted from the school and they are refusing to release my results...
haix, and im feeling so unwell... everything is plummeting to the rock bottom of the sea. i know everything will eventually turn out fine, but... when?
haix, and im feeling so unwell... everything is plummeting to the rock bottom of the sea. i know everything will eventually turn out fine, but... when?
Wednesday 16 May 2012
Liang Liang Garden Dessert
This maddening weather is terrible:( i find myself soaked in sweat just by stepping out of my house:( terrible!!
My persistent cough makes everything worse:(
Wanted something sweet to brighten up the mood and soothe the throat, so went to a random dessert shop to buy a bowl of hot cheng tng.
At first sight, the bowl looks small and the soup is darker than norm so I wasn't expecting much. But the first mouth took me aback, the cheng tng was really yummy!
The soup is not overly sweet, with a nice hint of red dates' taste. The bowl is filled with generous amount of ginko nuts, longan, candied orange, candied winter melon, barley and jelly strips, yums:) and I'm further surprised to find red bean and water chestnut inside the soup! Totally love the crunchy texture from the water chestnut.
The best part is... This bowl of goodness only costs $1.20! Me want another bowl now!
Liang Liang Garden
Tiong Bahru Market Stall #02-75
My persistent cough makes everything worse:(
Wanted something sweet to brighten up the mood and soothe the throat, so went to a random dessert shop to buy a bowl of hot cheng tng.
At first sight, the bowl looks small and the soup is darker than norm so I wasn't expecting much. But the first mouth took me aback, the cheng tng was really yummy!
The soup is not overly sweet, with a nice hint of red dates' taste. The bowl is filled with generous amount of ginko nuts, longan, candied orange, candied winter melon, barley and jelly strips, yums:) and I'm further surprised to find red bean and water chestnut inside the soup! Totally love the crunchy texture from the water chestnut.
The best part is... This bowl of goodness only costs $1.20! Me want another bowl now!
Liang Liang Garden
Tiong Bahru Market Stall #02-75
Sunday 13 May 2012
Wedding:)
Another wedding:) my friends around me are so blessed!
went for adeline and chong g*uan's wedding last night:) it was well planned , simple and heartwarming.
Had a good time catching up w vivien:p even meeting up w the ex-bosses was less awkward, thank goodness *phew* Everyone was happy and I'm sure tt's wat Adeline had meticulously planned for:) always so careful and thoughtful:)
I feel so happy for my dearest adeline who has finally settled down w the man she loved:) stay happy dearest:) u look super gorgeous last night!!:))
went for adeline and chong g*uan's wedding last night:) it was well planned , simple and heartwarming.
Had a good time catching up w vivien:p even meeting up w the ex-bosses was less awkward, thank goodness *phew* Everyone was happy and I'm sure tt's wat Adeline had meticulously planned for:) always so careful and thoughtful:)
I feel so happy for my dearest adeline who has finally settled down w the man she loved:) stay happy dearest:) u look super gorgeous last night!!:))
Thursday 10 May 2012
Blue Lagoon Western Food @ Bedok North Market and Food Centre
Wanted to eat chris kway chap but it was sold out by 2pm:( walked down the food centre and decided to give this western food a try as most of the tables were eating from the western store.
Western food is not my favourite, but the breaded pork chop at blue lagoon was delicious! My impression of pork chop is tough and chewy. But at blue lagoon, the meat is tender and moist, without the husky taste of frozen pork. The breaded crust sandwiching the pork was crispy and somewhat aromatic! This dish is so yummy that I found myself gnawing on the bone at the end of the meal:p
Servings r generous, each dish is priced at an affordable $5! Blue lagoon is definitely one of the better hawker styled western food:)
216 Bedok North Street 1
#01-75
Singapore 460216
Western food is not my favourite, but the breaded pork chop at blue lagoon was delicious! My impression of pork chop is tough and chewy. But at blue lagoon, the meat is tender and moist, without the husky taste of frozen pork. The breaded crust sandwiching the pork was crispy and somewhat aromatic! This dish is so yummy that I found myself gnawing on the bone at the end of the meal:p
Servings r generous, each dish is priced at an affordable $5! Blue lagoon is definitely one of the better hawker styled western food:)
216 Bedok North Street 1
#01-75
Singapore 460216
Wednesday 9 May 2012
Blabber mouth
Hmm... Another trouble maker in my life:(
Y can't things be kept peacefully according to my way?
Hate insensitive pple! note to self, dun over share information w colleagues.
GDI!!!
Y can't things be kept peacefully according to my way?
Hate insensitive pple! note to self, dun over share information w colleagues.
GDI!!!
Gloomy day...
Makes me feel like hiding underneath my blanket and let the tears flow...
Nothing is wrong... I just wanna release the accumulated insecurities and uncertainties suppressed within me.
Nothing is wrong... I just wanna release the accumulated insecurities and uncertainties suppressed within me.
Tuesday 8 May 2012
Back to nie
Went for the first lecture after practicum and am feeling rather surreal tt one week ago I was still in tt hellish place.
hopefully this is the last lesson in nie too... I have little strength to do anything related to nie and moe anymore!
:) so is life good now?
hopefully this is the last lesson in nie too... I have little strength to do anything related to nie and moe anymore!
:) so is life good now?
Monday 7 May 2012
Yippee:)
One new student near my place starting next month:) hopefully it will turn out fine *cross fingers*
More please?
More please?
Sunday 6 May 2012
Wedding:)
Attended jessica's wedding yesterday and am very happy tt everything turned out fine despite the weather!
Abit worried if the packet I gave is not enough, i based it on my friend's suggestion. but nonetheless it's the thoughts tt counts right?:)
Congratulations girl:)
Abit worried if the packet I gave is not enough, i based it on my friend's suggestion. but nonetheless it's the thoughts tt counts right?:)
Congratulations girl:)
Saturday 5 May 2012
Sunset Grill and Pub (Seletar) closed?
Wanted to eat at sunset grill to curb some buffalo wing cravings but was shocked to see nothing at its previous location!
We recapped how we went in 2 years ago and questioned whether we might be lost.
But the scenery is still the same; the toilet near the carpark, the rows of office and the big huge tree in front of sunset grill is still present. But the restaurant is gone:(
Thank God for technology, a safari search solved our doubts and confirmed tt other pple also met with the same situation.
Bye bye sunset grill, we will miss ur tranquil idyllic location:(
We recapped how we went in 2 years ago and questioned whether we might be lost.
But the scenery is still the same; the toilet near the carpark, the rows of office and the big huge tree in front of sunset grill is still present. But the restaurant is gone:(
Thank God for technology, a safari search solved our doubts and confirmed tt other pple also met with the same situation.
Bye bye sunset grill, we will miss ur tranquil idyllic location:(
Friday 4 May 2012
Last day of practicum
This is *finally the last day of practicum, no photos taken with the students. just pictures of the school settings for memory sake.
The sense of relief comes from both the temporary closure from the throngs of lesson plans and the retreat from the noise and misbehaviours. Generally, practicum has been an eye opening experience, dotted with greater disappointment as a trainee teacher and a colleague.
Disappointed bcos I did not manage to execute interesting lesson plans to better engage the students and augment their interest in music. Music lessons are brief and the short weekly meeting with the students made it harder to establish firm rapport and discipline.
Students display different forms of behaviours every lessons, and sometimes exhibit violence in class. Im still scared of certain classes as there are too many unmanageable students in one class, and my heart falls whenever I know I have to teach them on that particular day.
With the lack of support and sense of helplessness, I was unfocused in the development of lesson plans. Maybe I should have asked for more help from my cts, but to me, rapport w the students can only be built when classes r managed personally by me without the previous teachers around.
I am being truthful here bcos this is my blog, a place where I can pour out my inner most thoughts without the worries of being judged.
I try my best not to blame the students, but rather take it upon myself that I'm too weak and not resilient enough as a 21st century teacher. Many would tell me that my work is too overwhelming for a trainee teacher who has no prior experience in any teaching and being forced to perform the skills of an experienced contract teacher.
But isnt this what I pre-empt? That I will be less proficient than the trainee teachers who have prior contract experience? So y the stress to grow out of my shoes and wear myself out so fast?
Sadly in a graded situation like the practicum, i had to get myself well adapted asap. As trainee teachers, we have to perform and bring in interesting lesson activities for our 8 lesson observations during the short 10 weeks stay in practicum.
It is not an easy feat especially if the students are naturally disruptive and not cooperative in classes. I consistently had to worry whether my lesson activities were engaging and learner centred enough without inciting too much excitement in class to prevent disruptive behaviours.
Maybe the school has not been sensitive enough and arrange difficult classes for a beginning teacher to teach without considering the overwhelming demands of a student teacher.
I have 2 primary 1 classes, 1 primary 2 class, 1 primary 3 class, 1 primary 4 class and 6 primary 6 classes. That's a total of 11 classes altogether. While normal EMS teachers only take 3 classes and see their classes a few hours each week, music teachers only meet each class either once a week for 1 hour or twice a week for 30mins each. The challenges met are vastly different and in actual fact, beginning teachers are not supposed to teach at primary 1 and primary 6 levels.
But I shan't pursue on, since I had showed my timetable to my NIE*sup and she was fine with the arrangement.
Im glad that I didnt give up in between my practicum and bite the bullet till the last day. I tried, but I know im capable of achieving better if given a different setting.
Thinking back, life in the school had been depressing and unmotivating. I hated the colleagues who gossiped non stop and talked behind pple's back. It was too excessive. They complained about the slightest thing and everything openly.
I hate being judged for teaching a "slack" subject. I used to be very confident of my knowledge and im starting to feel unsure now.
I feel weak and lost:(
That place made me more negative then ever, hence I know it's right for me to go. I dun wan to lose my happy self to that awful place.
The sense of relief comes from both the temporary closure from the throngs of lesson plans and the retreat from the noise and misbehaviours. Generally, practicum has been an eye opening experience, dotted with greater disappointment as a trainee teacher and a colleague.
Disappointed bcos I did not manage to execute interesting lesson plans to better engage the students and augment their interest in music. Music lessons are brief and the short weekly meeting with the students made it harder to establish firm rapport and discipline.
Students display different forms of behaviours every lessons, and sometimes exhibit violence in class. Im still scared of certain classes as there are too many unmanageable students in one class, and my heart falls whenever I know I have to teach them on that particular day.
With the lack of support and sense of helplessness, I was unfocused in the development of lesson plans. Maybe I should have asked for more help from my cts, but to me, rapport w the students can only be built when classes r managed personally by me without the previous teachers around.
I am being truthful here bcos this is my blog, a place where I can pour out my inner most thoughts without the worries of being judged.
I try my best not to blame the students, but rather take it upon myself that I'm too weak and not resilient enough as a 21st century teacher. Many would tell me that my work is too overwhelming for a trainee teacher who has no prior experience in any teaching and being forced to perform the skills of an experienced contract teacher.
But isnt this what I pre-empt? That I will be less proficient than the trainee teachers who have prior contract experience? So y the stress to grow out of my shoes and wear myself out so fast?
Sadly in a graded situation like the practicum, i had to get myself well adapted asap. As trainee teachers, we have to perform and bring in interesting lesson activities for our 8 lesson observations during the short 10 weeks stay in practicum.
It is not an easy feat especially if the students are naturally disruptive and not cooperative in classes. I consistently had to worry whether my lesson activities were engaging and learner centred enough without inciting too much excitement in class to prevent disruptive behaviours.
Maybe the school has not been sensitive enough and arrange difficult classes for a beginning teacher to teach without considering the overwhelming demands of a student teacher.
I have 2 primary 1 classes, 1 primary 2 class, 1 primary 3 class, 1 primary 4 class and 6 primary 6 classes. That's a total of 11 classes altogether. While normal EMS teachers only take 3 classes and see their classes a few hours each week, music teachers only meet each class either once a week for 1 hour or twice a week for 30mins each. The challenges met are vastly different and in actual fact, beginning teachers are not supposed to teach at primary 1 and primary 6 levels.
But I shan't pursue on, since I had showed my timetable to my NIE*sup and she was fine with the arrangement.
Im glad that I didnt give up in between my practicum and bite the bullet till the last day. I tried, but I know im capable of achieving better if given a different setting.
Thinking back, life in the school had been depressing and unmotivating. I hated the colleagues who gossiped non stop and talked behind pple's back. It was too excessive. They complained about the slightest thing and everything openly.
I hate being judged for teaching a "slack" subject. I used to be very confident of my knowledge and im starting to feel unsure now.
I feel weak and lost:(
That place made me more negative then ever, hence I know it's right for me to go. I dun wan to lose my happy self to that awful place.
Thursday 3 May 2012
Some pple...
R simply too full of themselves. Vying for the spot of alpha female, trying to be cool and everything.
Words may be cheap to you, but dun assume pple dun rmb wat u say. Haix, u r only gd at complaining and making ur life sound so glamorous. Can you try to see the world beyond ur well?
Y talk bad behind pple's back and act concerned in front of them? Is tt y ur bf left u previously? Is tt wat he was telling u? Cos u r a two headed snake?
I know u r generally nice, but i can feel tt u r not nice in a sincere way. Please stop hiding those insecurities and act so atas. *face palm faker*
And I feel like telling u a hard truth... Sorry but ur musicality and piano playing is not exactly fantastic:( ur lesson plans ain't interesting and u display no sense of musicality. I feel uneasy sitting in ur lessons:(
Yakitty yak!
Words may be cheap to you, but dun assume pple dun rmb wat u say. Haix, u r only gd at complaining and making ur life sound so glamorous. Can you try to see the world beyond ur well?
Y talk bad behind pple's back and act concerned in front of them? Is tt y ur bf left u previously? Is tt wat he was telling u? Cos u r a two headed snake?
I know u r generally nice, but i can feel tt u r not nice in a sincere way. Please stop hiding those insecurities and act so atas. *face palm faker*
And I feel like telling u a hard truth... Sorry but ur musicality and piano playing is not exactly fantastic:( ur lesson plans ain't interesting and u display no sense of musicality. I feel uneasy sitting in ur lessons:(
Yakitty yak!
Wednesday 2 May 2012
Dun understand...
Y some pple can be so unkind and hurtful?
Y some pple can be downright mean and obnoxious?
These r the pple driving me out of school:( these r the pple who set the unhappy and unfriendly environment in school:( they r the reason y the students r so badly behaved... The school lacks nurturing teachers!
Bad apples be gone! Stay in ur rugged holes all u mean teachers!! Urgh!
The world can really do w more good apples!
Y some pple can be downright mean and obnoxious?
These r the pple driving me out of school:( these r the pple who set the unhappy and unfriendly environment in school:( they r the reason y the students r so badly behaved... The school lacks nurturing teachers!
Bad apples be gone! Stay in ur rugged holes all u mean teachers!! Urgh!
The world can really do w more good apples!
Tuesday 1 May 2012
Foodie labour day!
Had a great time out on labour day, searching for food and pigging out! Ended the day by watching the avengers! Had to book the tickets 1 day in advanced cos it was selling out everywhere!
Avengers is action packed, dotted w many eye feasting showcase of hunky men and humorous hulk scenes:D
The disappointing factor is probably the draggy storyline at the beginning when the heros quarrelled among themselves.
The highly acclaimed show didn't capture my fascination remarkably but the movie is definitely worth catching! Check out the trailer after the end of the movies:)
3.25 out of 5 popcorns
Avengers is action packed, dotted w many eye feasting showcase of hunky men and humorous hulk scenes:D
The disappointing factor is probably the draggy storyline at the beginning when the heros quarrelled among themselves.
The highly acclaimed show didn't capture my fascination remarkably but the movie is definitely worth catching! Check out the trailer after the end of the movies:)
3.25 out of 5 popcorns
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